open the flood gates of heaven, let it rain

so i think it's time for a trip, you know, time to take in some new scenery, clear the dust and cobwebs from from wee lil brain. i've been thinking, i would really like to go to vermont. i have never been, and i'm just not ok with that anymore, must change that. i mean, it must be great, their maple syrup is great, so the rest of the state must be amazing. and this time of year? oh yes, i believe it's time to go somewhere in new england. and with gas prices the way they are, there are now no excuses for lack of road-trippage. i think i'll leave in the morning.

my room smells funny. i bought these pretty fall colored flowers, and while i was gone this weekend, they basically started to rot. how unpleasant. :-P

this weekend was amazing fun. had to postpone backpacking b/c jessica bailed at the prospect of rain (which, btw, it was completely dry the whole time. boo.) so we picked apples and made applesauce. green applesauce. just fyi, you can't really dye applesauce blue... my primary school education apparently was less than satisfactory ;-) so yes, we have yucky looking green applesauce now. and we got to all hang out. really. everybody (plus a baby. plus one on the way. wow.). and then we went to starbucks and discussed how much we've changed, yada yada yada.

AND... i gave my two weeks notice to the library. and life is good. just can't justify missing out on some very limited family/friends time for a minimum wage, pain-in-the-butt job. hmmmmm... family or about two bucks after taxes... that was tough. :-P

and God's been teaching me lots. lessons in love, in provision, in trust, in patience, plus some. lessons i needed. lessons i seem to always need. if i don't consciously decide to focus on Christ, i subconsciously begin to doubt Him, and it shows in my attitude and my actions, my words, everything. i wonder how He doesn't get tired of me sometimes :-) but He doesn't, and that's the beauty of it, that's a love i can't comprehend.

and now i have to go buy new hiking boots. because mine have fallen into the black hole that is my closet. should probably do something about that...

don't look back if i'm a weight around your neck

so i haven't been on here in awhile.

and it's almost time for bed. because i have to get up... early. too early. and i am turning into an old woman (and LOVING it). all that to say, i don't have much time to say anything.

except that some people can just be dumb. repeatedly. causing you to want to beat them. furiously. although it is perhaps better to just let them live and learn in their own misery. or something. bleh.

also, some people can be dumb in a kind of laughable way. and i am ok with that (which is good... because that is me... 99% of the time :-P )

also... i ate too much sorbet. oops.

and, i am bored. with life. ok, that's not entirely true, i just want a change. oh wait, i get one in... two months :-D let me out, let me out, let me out!!!

and lastly, i pulled my hair back too tight again. and my head hurts. dangit.

good night.