bleh, I give up on myspace... it annoys me
so... it's been awhile since I've updated this thing, and... I'm tired so I'm not gonna do it now :-D
goodnight moon
12.29.2005
12.08.2005
basically, I am tired. again. erin is feeling multiple things at the same time, and they are as follows... impressed by a man who loves Jesus and a dear friend very very much, disappointed in the choices of another, confused/annoyed by the actions of another, anxious for the presence of another (whoever that is...), content with the presence of One alone
here is the conclusion I have come to, basically, on the way home. I know what I want. I know what I've waited my whole life for, I believe God is preparing someone amazing and is preparing me for that Mr. Amazing, and I'm not compromising. I'm not making excuses anymore, and I'm not trying to rationalize. It is what it is, and if it isn't, then it isn't. <-- that right there was profound, fyi. I don't want to talk myself into or out of anything. I only want what God wants, and I'm gonna just leave it in His hands- He has been faithful, He has led me through so much, how could I possibly doubt His sovereignty over every part of my life, especially this?
And do you know what? Right now, I can't think of anything better than to just sit at my Savior's feet quietly listening, learning, worshipping... especially at this time of year, I just want to be still, to take in the miracle as deeply as my human heart can, to be in wonder of it all, that my God would send His Son into this world, to walk the same streets, breathe the same air, see His Father's creation as I see it now, maybe even share in joyful laughter over the same little things I do... that's simply more than I can imagine
The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You
here is the conclusion I have come to, basically, on the way home. I know what I want. I know what I've waited my whole life for, I believe God is preparing someone amazing and is preparing me for that Mr. Amazing, and I'm not compromising. I'm not making excuses anymore, and I'm not trying to rationalize. It is what it is, and if it isn't, then it isn't. <-- that right there was profound, fyi. I don't want to talk myself into or out of anything. I only want what God wants, and I'm gonna just leave it in His hands- He has been faithful, He has led me through so much, how could I possibly doubt His sovereignty over every part of my life, especially this?
And do you know what? Right now, I can't think of anything better than to just sit at my Savior's feet quietly listening, learning, worshipping... especially at this time of year, I just want to be still, to take in the miracle as deeply as my human heart can, to be in wonder of it all, that my God would send His Son into this world, to walk the same streets, breathe the same air, see His Father's creation as I see it now, maybe even share in joyful laughter over the same little things I do... that's simply more than I can imagine
The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You
12.05.2005
"...oh my life is changing every day in every possible way...
...and oh my dreams, it's never quite as it seems, never quite as it seems..."
...haha, if you can name the artist, you get ten points, ah, the sweet (?) days of middle school ;-)
but seriously, i'm deciding not to decide anything for a long time, because every time i do, i just change my mind.
i think i have driven all over the state within one week's time, and i definitely had no intention of doing that... ended up in gordon b/c my doctor is super cool and called in my prescription there... wasn't until i hit ivey that i realized where i was going... wow, that seems like ten years ago, but then again, just like yesterday with this really bad dream stuck in the middle... did i mention i pulled an all-nighter last night?... so anyways, in just the past two days, i've been to macon twice and atlanta once, so basically, all i do is drive now. huh. it's not like i have to study for exams or anything.
do you know what would be really cool? if boys and girls could just be friends. i mean, is it really that hard? i am in full agreement with jessica, when harry met sally is 100% true (well, sorta...)
was watching the game, and i had to leave... the seahawks were absolutely humiliating philly... 42-0 just isn't right, especially in the third quarter...
ironically enough, these lyrics were stuck in my head today... ok, i lied, i'm not going to say what was stuck in my head, but God has this funny way of still, i don't know, doing His thing, because, i don't know, He's God, and He can do that, i guess... waiting patiently... and making no predictions, no promises, nothing... just waiting...
tomorrow is my free day, and when i say free, i mean free, for real! i'm sleepin' in, runnin' and makin' my Christmas cards and baking (and then i should probably run again... there's something wrong with cooks who don't quality control... extensively...)
i love this time of year so very much, and i cannot wait till exams are done, so i can go home and pretend to have money to buy Christmas presents with and decorate gingerbread houses and go carolling and sit around old, familiar coffee houses watching people make intricate structures out of candles and playing games by our own rules because we lost the directions and decorate the Christmas tree and strategically place decorations where the animals can't get them (or at least can't get to the more valued ones...) and drive around town at night marvelling at the lights and wonder how much the crazy people with more lights than new york city have to pay for electricity in december and listen to a charlie brown christmas (and dance!) and pretend to be able to sing handel's messiah and smell hot cider and bake and bake and bake and spend time with old and new friends just laughing and enjoying each other's company. this year will be different, because i know i will find myself in milledgeville to visit friends more than i planned originally, but if i don't have to worry about dumb gcsu, it's a pretty cool place :-) maybe i'll drive to my grandparents just for kicks. (or maybe i'll make five quarts of sauce and pesto to bestow on some more unsuspecting victims! i'm the biggest nerd ever!)
oh, i almost forgot about watching a charlie brown christmas... "how can you say someone is great who's never had his picture on a bubble gum card?"... oh, the profound lessons i have learned...
O thou that tellest good tidings of Zion, get thee up into the high mountain; O thou that tellest good tidings to Jerusalem, lift up thy voice with strength; lift it up, be not afraid; say unto the cities of Judah, Behold your God!
Isaiah 40:9
...and oh my dreams, it's never quite as it seems, never quite as it seems..."
...haha, if you can name the artist, you get ten points, ah, the sweet (?) days of middle school ;-)
but seriously, i'm deciding not to decide anything for a long time, because every time i do, i just change my mind.
i think i have driven all over the state within one week's time, and i definitely had no intention of doing that... ended up in gordon b/c my doctor is super cool and called in my prescription there... wasn't until i hit ivey that i realized where i was going... wow, that seems like ten years ago, but then again, just like yesterday with this really bad dream stuck in the middle... did i mention i pulled an all-nighter last night?... so anyways, in just the past two days, i've been to macon twice and atlanta once, so basically, all i do is drive now. huh. it's not like i have to study for exams or anything.
do you know what would be really cool? if boys and girls could just be friends. i mean, is it really that hard? i am in full agreement with jessica, when harry met sally is 100% true (well, sorta...)
was watching the game, and i had to leave... the seahawks were absolutely humiliating philly... 42-0 just isn't right, especially in the third quarter...
ironically enough, these lyrics were stuck in my head today... ok, i lied, i'm not going to say what was stuck in my head, but God has this funny way of still, i don't know, doing His thing, because, i don't know, He's God, and He can do that, i guess... waiting patiently... and making no predictions, no promises, nothing... just waiting...
tomorrow is my free day, and when i say free, i mean free, for real! i'm sleepin' in, runnin' and makin' my Christmas cards and baking (and then i should probably run again... there's something wrong with cooks who don't quality control... extensively...)
i love this time of year so very much, and i cannot wait till exams are done, so i can go home and pretend to have money to buy Christmas presents with and decorate gingerbread houses and go carolling and sit around old, familiar coffee houses watching people make intricate structures out of candles and playing games by our own rules because we lost the directions and decorate the Christmas tree and strategically place decorations where the animals can't get them (or at least can't get to the more valued ones...) and drive around town at night marvelling at the lights and wonder how much the crazy people with more lights than new york city have to pay for electricity in december and listen to a charlie brown christmas (and dance!) and pretend to be able to sing handel's messiah and smell hot cider and bake and bake and bake and spend time with old and new friends just laughing and enjoying each other's company. this year will be different, because i know i will find myself in milledgeville to visit friends more than i planned originally, but if i don't have to worry about dumb gcsu, it's a pretty cool place :-) maybe i'll drive to my grandparents just for kicks. (or maybe i'll make five quarts of sauce and pesto to bestow on some more unsuspecting victims! i'm the biggest nerd ever!)
oh, i almost forgot about watching a charlie brown christmas... "how can you say someone is great who's never had his picture on a bubble gum card?"... oh, the profound lessons i have learned...
O thou that tellest good tidings of Zion, get thee up into the high mountain; O thou that tellest good tidings to Jerusalem, lift up thy voice with strength; lift it up, be not afraid; say unto the cities of Judah, Behold your God!
Isaiah 40:9
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