wow, so that was quite a weekend. that's all i have to say.
i lied. so wednesday was cool, because i might actually have been diagnosed (finally) and maybe i can actually get better! big maybe, but "there's always the hope..." and i have no cavities, so my day got even better :-D thursday consisted of cooking and eating and a bit o' football and that's about it, which is just how it was supposed to be. friday... went to the outlet malls, found lots of really great deals, but all of the checkout lines were about three miles long, so i bought nothing. yes, that's right folks, i didn't buy jack squat. caught up with the girls for the rest of the day and had way more fun than i've had in a long time. seriously, i thought my chest was going to break, we were laughing so hard. good times ;-) my birthday consisted of sleeping in, no running, no eating good, presents, family, and no alcohol. so basically, it was just another very nice, enjoyable day in the life of erin :-)
i got lots of fun stuff like cool family heirloom stuff (military pins, old jewelry, etc.) and a dvd that is going to teach me how to do irish dance (ha! how fun is that!?)
so... my life plans have changed again. as in, i don't have any right now. ok, that's a lie. in one year, i'll be packing up to leave milly for good, looking for a real job and a home of my own. with a greyhound that i'll have adopted :-) lookin at grad school at georgia state or possibly ministry, so maybe moody bible institute or southeastern. trying not to think too hard about it, because then i just convince myself that that's what God wants, and thus far, it hasn't worked for me, so i just have to pray about it. kind of amazing how my "life plans" have changed so dramatically so many times over the course of this semester. i went from desparately wanting to leave milly and go to emory for grad school for nutrition to wanting to stay in milly and teach, and well, the first part of that plan got blown out of the water almost instantaneously (if i'm really honest with myself, which i hate...) and the second part fell through last week, and now i'm back to square one minus emory with the addition of being completely indecisive about what i want to do with my life. a little help here? feeling just a little bit like i'm stumbling through the dark, even though i'm not... i make no sense... i'm going to bed.
"...every valley shall be exalted..."
11.27.2005
11.23.2005
haha, do you know what time it is? two in the morning. ask me what time i have to leave... um, six in the morning, as in four hours from now. ask me if i've started packing... because i haven't. ask me if i've gone over the senior staff meeting junk... because i haven't. ask me if i've finished laundry... i think you can guess the answer to that. i hope starbucks opens early.
sometimes i wonder why my anger is always delayed. if it doesn't arrive on time, it just shouldn't come at all. that makes no sense. i am tired. and should sleep. now.
i'm going to run a marathon next year. apparently. hm.
major life-changing decisions were made last night. because that never happens. tossing around other ideas, but i'm going to keep them a secret. ha.
my toes are cold.
i don't want to go to the doctor tomorrow. or three doctors. whatever.
i desperately want to go to tuscany.
sometimes i wonder why my anger is always delayed. if it doesn't arrive on time, it just shouldn't come at all. that makes no sense. i am tired. and should sleep. now.
i'm going to run a marathon next year. apparently. hm.
major life-changing decisions were made last night. because that never happens. tossing around other ideas, but i'm going to keep them a secret. ha.
my toes are cold.
i don't want to go to the doctor tomorrow. or three doctors. whatever.
i desperately want to go to tuscany.
11.20.2005
i think i found myself this weekend
i went home and just sat in my room. i pored over old letters from friends and newspaper clippings. i looked at all of the books on my bookshelves, from the one i used in an attempt to teach myself latin to much-loved novels to ones i read simply because i wanted to learn something new, to seek a broader understanding. i found bins full of art supplies i used to use to make things for friends. i found stacks of notecards and remembered how i used to always give cards to people, it was some kind of freak addiction. and then i found my music. no, not tapes or cds, but written music. and i pulled out my violin, and after a frustrating bout of tuning, i played. and i played. for about two hours, i played whatever i could get my hands on. strangely enough, even after two years of not touching the thing, i remembered it all. i can't explain what music does to me. it's an out-of-body experience, a road traveled, not merely a song heard. to listen to songs, there is such a powerful effect on every part of me- my heart beats fast, my mind is uncontrollably drawn into far-removed, fantastic realities. but to play. now that is something entirely different, a broad expansion of simply hearing notes. it becomes a part of me. nothing can interrupt that perfect harmony of musician and music, and in finding that flawless beauty in music, however flawed it may be played, i am at peace.
ok, back to reality. so, saturday, i helped diane set up for an event at Central Park, so i went for a nice little run (apparently i am a "nice distraction"... people are weird). basically, the rest of my weekend consisted of baking three turkeys and lots and lots of muffins. literally. baked all night. tis the season. then, church this morning and painting and cleaning and other odds and ends in east point. then back here. need to get a start on stuff for tomorrow. busy busy day. would really like to be home since family is already rollin' into town, but you can't have everything. should unload my car... in the rain... fun
The heart breaking makes a sound
I never knew could be
So beautiful and loud
Fury-filled and we collide
So courageous until now
Fumbling and scared
So afraid You'll find me out
Alone here with my doubt
Here it comes a beautiful collision
Is happening now
There seems no end to where you begin and where I end now
You and I, collide
...love that song :-)
i went home and just sat in my room. i pored over old letters from friends and newspaper clippings. i looked at all of the books on my bookshelves, from the one i used in an attempt to teach myself latin to much-loved novels to ones i read simply because i wanted to learn something new, to seek a broader understanding. i found bins full of art supplies i used to use to make things for friends. i found stacks of notecards and remembered how i used to always give cards to people, it was some kind of freak addiction. and then i found my music. no, not tapes or cds, but written music. and i pulled out my violin, and after a frustrating bout of tuning, i played. and i played. for about two hours, i played whatever i could get my hands on. strangely enough, even after two years of not touching the thing, i remembered it all. i can't explain what music does to me. it's an out-of-body experience, a road traveled, not merely a song heard. to listen to songs, there is such a powerful effect on every part of me- my heart beats fast, my mind is uncontrollably drawn into far-removed, fantastic realities. but to play. now that is something entirely different, a broad expansion of simply hearing notes. it becomes a part of me. nothing can interrupt that perfect harmony of musician and music, and in finding that flawless beauty in music, however flawed it may be played, i am at peace.
ok, back to reality. so, saturday, i helped diane set up for an event at Central Park, so i went for a nice little run (apparently i am a "nice distraction"... people are weird). basically, the rest of my weekend consisted of baking three turkeys and lots and lots of muffins. literally. baked all night. tis the season. then, church this morning and painting and cleaning and other odds and ends in east point. then back here. need to get a start on stuff for tomorrow. busy busy day. would really like to be home since family is already rollin' into town, but you can't have everything. should unload my car... in the rain... fun
The heart breaking makes a sound
I never knew could be
So beautiful and loud
Fury-filled and we collide
So courageous until now
Fumbling and scared
So afraid You'll find me out
Alone here with my doubt
Here it comes a beautiful collision
Is happening now
There seems no end to where you begin and where I end now
You and I, collide
...love that song :-)
11.17.2005
it took six hours, yes, that's right SIX hours for that stinkin' coffee to wear off... i guess for someone who only drinks water and the occasional green tea, i got what i deserved... i swear, i coulda run 8 miles at 4am (cuz i've never done that before...)
it is cold, and i love it :-D
tomorrow is friday, and i love that too
i'm in a beethoven mood
i am frustrated with men. and i will say no more. for now.
honesty is not always the best policy. but i want to honestly beat some people. ok, now i will say no more. for real.
it is cold, and i love it :-D
tomorrow is friday, and i love that too
i'm in a beethoven mood
i am frustrated with men. and i will say no more. for now.
honesty is not always the best policy. but i want to honestly beat some people. ok, now i will say no more. for real.
11.16.2005
wow, do you know how amazing my God is?!
the past few weeks have been, um, rough, to put it lightly, and after more bad news today, my heart has been pretty heavy, just feelin' bogged down, ya know? so I walk out of church, and I'm met by a cool breeze, the air is crisp and clear, just breathing it in makes me feel renewed, and I look at the sky, and just beyond the leafless trees I see the moon like I have never seen it before, nestled among streaks of irridescent clouds is a perfect picture of my Savior's handiwork displayed just for me, just to ease my mind and bring a feeling of peace about me... God has protected me from so much, and then I look at the sky, it's almost like I can feel his loving arms wrapped around me, and while I can still feel the chill of the wind as it blows through my hair, I can feel His presence so strongly, so completely... I don't deserve this
a meeting, a paper, and Blackbird... tonight will be good...
the past few weeks have been, um, rough, to put it lightly, and after more bad news today, my heart has been pretty heavy, just feelin' bogged down, ya know? so I walk out of church, and I'm met by a cool breeze, the air is crisp and clear, just breathing it in makes me feel renewed, and I look at the sky, and just beyond the leafless trees I see the moon like I have never seen it before, nestled among streaks of irridescent clouds is a perfect picture of my Savior's handiwork displayed just for me, just to ease my mind and bring a feeling of peace about me... God has protected me from so much, and then I look at the sky, it's almost like I can feel his loving arms wrapped around me, and while I can still feel the chill of the wind as it blows through my hair, I can feel His presence so strongly, so completely... I don't deserve this
a meeting, a paper, and Blackbird... tonight will be good...
11.15.2005
11.14.2005
mountains= fun
i have to say that had i actually not been single (::gasp::) for this trip, it might not have been as much fun, but next time, i want to go camping, so i'll need to hunt down someone to make that a possibility... um, nope, not gonna go there... :-/
i am sleepy... must run in the morning, so i'm off to bed...
i have to say that had i actually not been single (::gasp::) for this trip, it might not have been as much fun, but next time, i want to go camping, so i'll need to hunt down someone to make that a possibility... um, nope, not gonna go there... :-/
i am sleepy... must run in the morning, so i'm off to bed...
11.10.2005
uh oh, i have words now...
guys are awful, eh, scratch that, seems unfair to the few really good ones out there, but right now, i can't help by be thoroughly disgusted with men... particularly one arrogant, cocky... idiot... in Florida, i want to just go down there and disfigure him, really, he makes me so angry (<-- hey look, it's possible, apparently i do feel anger)... is there some kind of "can't be a man and say it, so this is the excuse i'm gonna throw in your face to get rid of you" handbook, because i tell you what, guys need to get a little more creative with the lies... they're getting a little over-used...
Ok, I'm done now :-D
I definitely did not get decaf coffee tonight, and that was a big fat mistake, except I saw more productivity in the following hour than this entire week, so maybe it was ok. Today was bad, well, maybe bad isn't quite the word. Draining. Yeah, that's the one I would use. I've had a lot of those lately, but that's neither here nor there. Went shopping to buy something pretty to wear tomorrow night and also indulged in a little Chris Tomlin and David Crowder Band for good measure (oh, and this new bubblemint gum, which I find quite intriguing... just thought you should know...). I tell you what, I am so ready to get out of here! Ah, just to see something new, to get away from the monotony of routine, I might just leave now.
There are 51 days left in the year. Wow. I love the holidays, no, I adore the holidays. I love the way you can light a candle and the scent brings back a thousand memories, none of which you wouldn't love to remember every day. I love holiday dinners with too many cooks in the kitchen with the sound of football coming from the living room television, and I love Thanksgiving dinner, because it's the first night we officially listen to Christmas music; I must confess to being a closet-listener throughout the rest of the year... I love decorating the Christmas tree and how it turns into an all-day affair, because you have to find the perfect spot for the tree and rearrange furniture accordingly; Daddy has to put 6 to 8 strands of white lights just so on the tree; you have to tell the story behind each of the ornaments going on the tree, even if it's just a glass ball; and after the girls put too many ornaments on one side of the tree and it starts to tip over, we have to rearrange the whole thing to distribute the weight evenly; and then after that, you have to turn all of the lights off and admire the simple and perfect beauty of bittersweet memories all concentrated in one place. I love putting out carrots and cookies for the reindeer and Santa and being old enough to make it look like they were actually there ;-) I love baking six different kinds of muffins and three different kinds of breads for my favorite people, because I don't have enough money to buy anything (except the ingredients end up costing me just as much...). I love dancing turkeys, and yes, my turkeys always dance on Thanksgiving. I love walking through bitter cold from house to house and seeing glimmers of joy on the faces of strangers as they listen to us sing. I love lighting the candles on Christmas Eve and singing Silent Night and growing old enough and close enough to God to know why that song has always brought tears to my eyes. I love seeing the looks on my sisters faces as they come into the living room and marvel at the site of wrapped treasures, and I love the "Christmas carnage" that follows. I love the candles in our front windows. I love waiting till the last minute to wrap gifts and being sent into my room with bags and bags of stuff knowing it will be hours before I can emerge, and I love frantically looking for far too well-hidden gifts at 1am on Christmas only to find them two months later. I love the way we can embrace the fact that almost everything we do for a solid month revolves around food, family, and fellowship. I love the thought of someday being able to share the holidays with my own family.
Oh wow, don't know where that came from. I am sleepy. And content :-)
guys are awful, eh, scratch that, seems unfair to the few really good ones out there, but right now, i can't help by be thoroughly disgusted with men... particularly one arrogant, cocky... idiot... in Florida, i want to just go down there and disfigure him, really, he makes me so angry (<-- hey look, it's possible, apparently i do feel anger)... is there some kind of "can't be a man and say it, so this is the excuse i'm gonna throw in your face to get rid of you" handbook, because i tell you what, guys need to get a little more creative with the lies... they're getting a little over-used...
Ok, I'm done now :-D
I definitely did not get decaf coffee tonight, and that was a big fat mistake, except I saw more productivity in the following hour than this entire week, so maybe it was ok. Today was bad, well, maybe bad isn't quite the word. Draining. Yeah, that's the one I would use. I've had a lot of those lately, but that's neither here nor there. Went shopping to buy something pretty to wear tomorrow night and also indulged in a little Chris Tomlin and David Crowder Band for good measure (oh, and this new bubblemint gum, which I find quite intriguing... just thought you should know...). I tell you what, I am so ready to get out of here! Ah, just to see something new, to get away from the monotony of routine, I might just leave now.
There are 51 days left in the year. Wow. I love the holidays, no, I adore the holidays. I love the way you can light a candle and the scent brings back a thousand memories, none of which you wouldn't love to remember every day. I love holiday dinners with too many cooks in the kitchen with the sound of football coming from the living room television, and I love Thanksgiving dinner, because it's the first night we officially listen to Christmas music; I must confess to being a closet-listener throughout the rest of the year... I love decorating the Christmas tree and how it turns into an all-day affair, because you have to find the perfect spot for the tree and rearrange furniture accordingly; Daddy has to put 6 to 8 strands of white lights just so on the tree; you have to tell the story behind each of the ornaments going on the tree, even if it's just a glass ball; and after the girls put too many ornaments on one side of the tree and it starts to tip over, we have to rearrange the whole thing to distribute the weight evenly; and then after that, you have to turn all of the lights off and admire the simple and perfect beauty of bittersweet memories all concentrated in one place. I love putting out carrots and cookies for the reindeer and Santa and being old enough to make it look like they were actually there ;-) I love baking six different kinds of muffins and three different kinds of breads for my favorite people, because I don't have enough money to buy anything (except the ingredients end up costing me just as much...). I love dancing turkeys, and yes, my turkeys always dance on Thanksgiving. I love walking through bitter cold from house to house and seeing glimmers of joy on the faces of strangers as they listen to us sing. I love lighting the candles on Christmas Eve and singing Silent Night and growing old enough and close enough to God to know why that song has always brought tears to my eyes. I love seeing the looks on my sisters faces as they come into the living room and marvel at the site of wrapped treasures, and I love the "Christmas carnage" that follows. I love the candles in our front windows. I love waiting till the last minute to wrap gifts and being sent into my room with bags and bags of stuff knowing it will be hours before I can emerge, and I love frantically looking for far too well-hidden gifts at 1am on Christmas only to find them two months later. I love the way we can embrace the fact that almost everything we do for a solid month revolves around food, family, and fellowship. I love the thought of someday being able to share the holidays with my own family.
Oh wow, don't know where that came from. I am sleepy. And content :-)
11.09.2005
11.06.2005
THANK YOU, JESUS!!! I have had the most incredible weekend I can remember in a long time! I have fallen in love all over again- do you wanna know with who?! His name is Jesus! Woo hoo!
So Gretchen and Matt are together, and do you know what I think of that? I think it's awesome! He's a great guy! He makes me laugh a whole lot, and he can take verbal abuse, which is a must, so I give him a thumbs up... and a 10!!! ;-) Anyways... he just better be good to that crazy girl, or the wrath of Erin will fall on him, and there's pretty much nothing worse than that. I'm so happy for her, because God put a man in her life that loves Him and genuinely wants to be with her and is pursuing her- she deserves that, we all do.
After I got to meet Mr. Curry, I headed up to Rock Eagle for Harvest, and the next few hours were just... I don't know. Now, these past few months, I've watched God do some stuff that I just don't understand, and He's led me on paths that weren't exactly my #1 choice, but I went in faith that He knew what He was doing. Friday night was one of those nights. I still don't understand what happened... I drove there and to make a long story short, after an hour and a half, I found the cabin, and worship was about to start, and I didn't know where worship was, and at that point, after a really stressful day, and this nagging feeling that I just needed to get back to Sanford, I turned around and drove back. Ok, so that just sounds lame and stupid, but you have to understand that I'm not generally someone who struggles with a lack of direction- I can follow them, I can keep my bearings, and I just know where I am. Along with that, I never really have a desire to go back to Sanford. Yeah, maybe to get back to Milledgeville, but never back to Sanford- I avoid it when at all possible. The rest of the night was more of the same... I have no idea why it was so urgent for me to get back when I did, and the way the timing of it all worked out so strangely that I know God had to do it- I'm still working on this whole "God speaking to me" thing. It's incredible, but it's new, and sometimes hard to get used to. Just have to stay in the Word, but that's no problem- can't think of anything I'd rather do than spend time with my Savior!
Ya know what?! I'm totally sold out for Jesus! I've listened to people tell me to "tone it down" and not be so passionate. Well, I'm sorry! Can't do it! Would you tell a woman who just found "the One" to tone it down, stop talking about him, stop being excited about her lover? No! It's no different! Jesus has my heart, and for this season of my life, He's the only one who has it, and I want to glow like someone who's in love, I want people to look at me and know that someone completes me, and that someone is Jesus! If this passion drives people away, well, that stinks, it really does, but I'm not going to hide my faith just to make people around me comfortable! Maybe they need to be made uncomfortable!
I love being this close to God. There's such a peace and fullness in my life. But what makes me nervous is that at these times, Satan is right around the corner just waiting to steal my joy. I've seen it so much in the past few months- just when I reach these points, I enter a period of intense battle, just fighting to keep my head above water, but Jesus is always right by my side- I know that. So Satan, you can just forget about it! You lose!
::happy sigh:: I want to dance! I just wanna sing a song and dance all around this place!
Alas, work beckons, as it always does, but that's alright. This week shouldn't be too hard as far as class goes. And you know what happens on Thursday?! Gonna get that much-needed vacation, and I'm so excited! On the way, dinner with Mr. Incredible ;-) (haha! or something...) and up to Gatlinburg to shop and take pictures and enjoy the fall! I have this uncontrollable urge to just sit in the woods and just be with God- no distractions, no deadlines approaching, nobody knocking on my door, no decisions to be made, no meetings, nothing- just me and Jesus and His creation. Oh wow, I'm not kidding you, I can't think of anything else I'd rather do right now.
Oh, started reading Blue Like Jazz the other night -> READ IT! It's so awesome!
Hey hey, do you know what?! Guys are crazy! It totally cracked me up to see what the "chaparones" did to the guys last night... I really thought they'd die b/c of the broken window, but our God is merciful ;-) And I got to see Casey, which was awesome! I only see him basically every 6 months, but it just amazes me to see how much God has grown him each time I talk to him- God's got plans for that boy, there's no doubt about that! What an encouragement!
I'm tired ::yawns::
Yo yo yo! Somebody really awesome has a birthday this week! Actually a few really awesome people have birthdays this week!
I need to step away from the computer...
"In the marvelous light, I'm running"
So Gretchen and Matt are together, and do you know what I think of that? I think it's awesome! He's a great guy! He makes me laugh a whole lot, and he can take verbal abuse, which is a must, so I give him a thumbs up... and a 10!!! ;-) Anyways... he just better be good to that crazy girl, or the wrath of Erin will fall on him, and there's pretty much nothing worse than that. I'm so happy for her, because God put a man in her life that loves Him and genuinely wants to be with her and is pursuing her- she deserves that, we all do.
After I got to meet Mr. Curry, I headed up to Rock Eagle for Harvest, and the next few hours were just... I don't know. Now, these past few months, I've watched God do some stuff that I just don't understand, and He's led me on paths that weren't exactly my #1 choice, but I went in faith that He knew what He was doing. Friday night was one of those nights. I still don't understand what happened... I drove there and to make a long story short, after an hour and a half, I found the cabin, and worship was about to start, and I didn't know where worship was, and at that point, after a really stressful day, and this nagging feeling that I just needed to get back to Sanford, I turned around and drove back. Ok, so that just sounds lame and stupid, but you have to understand that I'm not generally someone who struggles with a lack of direction- I can follow them, I can keep my bearings, and I just know where I am. Along with that, I never really have a desire to go back to Sanford. Yeah, maybe to get back to Milledgeville, but never back to Sanford- I avoid it when at all possible. The rest of the night was more of the same... I have no idea why it was so urgent for me to get back when I did, and the way the timing of it all worked out so strangely that I know God had to do it- I'm still working on this whole "God speaking to me" thing. It's incredible, but it's new, and sometimes hard to get used to. Just have to stay in the Word, but that's no problem- can't think of anything I'd rather do than spend time with my Savior!
Ya know what?! I'm totally sold out for Jesus! I've listened to people tell me to "tone it down" and not be so passionate. Well, I'm sorry! Can't do it! Would you tell a woman who just found "the One" to tone it down, stop talking about him, stop being excited about her lover? No! It's no different! Jesus has my heart, and for this season of my life, He's the only one who has it, and I want to glow like someone who's in love, I want people to look at me and know that someone completes me, and that someone is Jesus! If this passion drives people away, well, that stinks, it really does, but I'm not going to hide my faith just to make people around me comfortable! Maybe they need to be made uncomfortable!
I love being this close to God. There's such a peace and fullness in my life. But what makes me nervous is that at these times, Satan is right around the corner just waiting to steal my joy. I've seen it so much in the past few months- just when I reach these points, I enter a period of intense battle, just fighting to keep my head above water, but Jesus is always right by my side- I know that. So Satan, you can just forget about it! You lose!
::happy sigh:: I want to dance! I just wanna sing a song and dance all around this place!
Alas, work beckons, as it always does, but that's alright. This week shouldn't be too hard as far as class goes. And you know what happens on Thursday?! Gonna get that much-needed vacation, and I'm so excited! On the way, dinner with Mr. Incredible ;-) (haha! or something...) and up to Gatlinburg to shop and take pictures and enjoy the fall! I have this uncontrollable urge to just sit in the woods and just be with God- no distractions, no deadlines approaching, nobody knocking on my door, no decisions to be made, no meetings, nothing- just me and Jesus and His creation. Oh wow, I'm not kidding you, I can't think of anything else I'd rather do right now.
Oh, started reading Blue Like Jazz the other night -> READ IT! It's so awesome!
Hey hey, do you know what?! Guys are crazy! It totally cracked me up to see what the "chaparones" did to the guys last night... I really thought they'd die b/c of the broken window, but our God is merciful ;-) And I got to see Casey, which was awesome! I only see him basically every 6 months, but it just amazes me to see how much God has grown him each time I talk to him- God's got plans for that boy, there's no doubt about that! What an encouragement!
I'm tired ::yawns::
Yo yo yo! Somebody really awesome has a birthday this week! Actually a few really awesome people have birthdays this week!
I need to step away from the computer...
"In the marvelous light, I'm running"
11.02.2005
haha! it's 11:26, which btw is my birthday, and guess what I haven't done yet?! that's right, boys and girls, I have cleaned my not-so-dirty bathroom, organized my closet, booked a hotel, bought a few books online, vacuumed and straightened my pretty much already straightened room, done the dishes, gone food shopping, done four loads of laundry, but no way! i most certainly have not studied for the exam I have tomorrow :-P that's ok, my track record is pretty good thus far, i wouldn't want to mess it up by studying... i have had the most incredible day! holy cow, it's just been great, and if I could dance, I'd dance right now! forget it, I'll dance anyways! so here's the song for the day...
This time I've got to trust You
I've got to accept Your plan
I have tried to guide my circumstance
But there's just no way I can
When will I learn this lesson
Your ways are not like mine
Lord, help me to surrender
The control I try to have on my life
When I let it go
You take my hand and gently lead me
Then You let me know
Just how peaceful my life can be
When I let it go
Your never-ending blessings
Like a river start to flow
When I let it go
Too many times I'm searching
For the things I think I need
When I try to look for more
I always seem to give You less of me
Lord, help me gain this wisdom
My foolish mind still lacks
'Til I find a way to let go
Of the part of me I'm holding back
This time I've got to trust You
I've got to accept Your plan
I have tried to guide my circumstance
But there's just no way I can
When will I learn this lesson
Your ways are not like mine
Lord, help me to surrender
The control I try to have on my life
When I let it go
You take my hand and gently lead me
Then You let me know
Just how peaceful my life can be
When I let it go
Your never-ending blessings
Like a river start to flow
When I let it go
Too many times I'm searching
For the things I think I need
When I try to look for more
I always seem to give You less of me
Lord, help me gain this wisdom
My foolish mind still lacks
'Til I find a way to let go
Of the part of me I'm holding back
woohoo!!! things i am thankful for at this particular moment in time...
*sunny days
*friends who make you laugh
*friends who have "friends" that make you laugh ;-)
*flip-flops
*the prospect of lunch... mmm...
*half-way done laundry!
*exams that don't have essays!!!
*brutally, ridiculously honest friends
*precious and fun memories
*8 days till Tennessee and being not in Milledgeville and enjoying the beautiful outdoors
*Milledgeville :-)
*green tea
*church tonight!
*songs that make you smile
*songs that make you think
*songs...
*knees that don't hurt (at the moment...)
*un-foggy mornings
*rocking chairs
*plans for a hope and a future
*water
*life
::happy sigh:: back to cleaning :-P
*sunny days
*friends who make you laugh
*friends who have "friends" that make you laugh ;-)
*flip-flops
*the prospect of lunch... mmm...
*half-way done laundry!
*exams that don't have essays!!!
*brutally, ridiculously honest friends
*precious and fun memories
*8 days till Tennessee and being not in Milledgeville and enjoying the beautiful outdoors
*Milledgeville :-)
*green tea
*church tonight!
*songs that make you smile
*songs that make you think
*songs...
*knees that don't hurt (at the moment...)
*un-foggy mornings
*rocking chairs
*plans for a hope and a future
*water
*life
::happy sigh:: back to cleaning :-P
11.01.2005
If you would be loved, be loveable.
-Ovid
...
It's been one of those days
When everything just feels so far away
Hope don't be a stranger
Won't you help me make it through today?
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
Someone tell me how I
Stumble into doubting all the time
Some days I'm all together
And other days I stand here asking why
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
...
Then the time came when the risk it took
To remain tight in a bud was more painful
Than the risk it took to blossom.
-Anais Nin
-Ovid
...
It's been one of those days
When everything just feels so far away
Hope don't be a stranger
Won't you help me make it through today?
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
Someone tell me how I
Stumble into doubting all the time
Some days I'm all together
And other days I stand here asking why
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
...
Then the time came when the risk it took
To remain tight in a bud was more painful
Than the risk it took to blossom.
-Anais Nin
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