ew gross, just realized i hate that picture of me... should probably change it... someday

so it's been awhile, eh? well... let's see... i'm supposed to be writing a paper, and it will get done eventually... hopefully by 5pm tomorrow (actually, before 11 would be delightful, since i have class all day... hehe)... i don't even know where to start, so much has happened... God and i have been having some serious heart-to-hearts, and i have come to lots of realizations... i put God in a box... my box was pretty small compared to how big He is... He wanted out... so i canned the box... and let me tell you, it's pretty amazing what God will do if you just get out of His way... not like i can stop Him from doing whatever He wants to, but if i wanted to experience the fullness of His blessings, then i just had to let go... and that's the other thing... do we really grasp how much our Father wants to exercise His power in our lives? do we realize how much pleasure He is filled with when we say, "i believe You, God, just be who You are in my life..." and then He does it, and wow.

so basically i'm really REALLY ready to be done here. funny how i just kept askin' God for a little glimpse of what He has for me, and then He gave it to me, and i, being the incredibly greedy and selfish little bugger that i am, want more... i think there's a lesson in patience just waiting around the corner... cuz i haven't had to learn that lesson sixty times before... i am amazed at how much i was ready to cheat myself of by just settling... i'm so glad that God keeps not letting me do that, because i would've blown it a long LONG time ago... when i look at all He's protected me from, all that He's brought me through, i gotta wonder, whatever's coming is gonna be really exciting... i don't serve a God of mediocrity, that's for sure... i wonder if people realize how much of an adventure a life lived for Christ really is, and i wish i could explain it... all i can think is some people listen and follow the direction of world leaders, of their bosses, even of religious leaders (dare i go there...), but I get my orders straight from the King, from the God who rules over everything i see, from the One who crafted my very being, and through faith in Him, real mountain-moving faith, who knows what He's planning on doing through me?! it just fills me with joy, and a nice little warm, fuzzy feeling :-P hehe